True great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.

Gratitude 4/6/11-

I am grateful for my friends.

Today was probably one of the hardest days I've EVER had while being here. I must say that a lot, but honestly, this was the hardest. I was having a wonderful, productive morning, I woke up early and went on a run, then I was going to go read my scriptures. I borrowed my friend Asa's car and was going to go to the Swapmeet with Anthea that afternoon. I got on facebook to check things after my run and saw "David Goehring is now in a relationship with Whatsherface" I immediately started crying. IT HASN'T EVEN BEEN A FREAKING MONTH SIN

CE WE BROKE UP! AND what happened to "My bishop says it's not the right time to be in a relationship?" I wanted to punch him in the face SO BAD!

The first thing that came to my mind was "I have a car, I need to drive and get away from here" So yeah, I grabbed the keys, ran to the car and drove to the first place that came to mind: The Temple. I parked the car and booked it up Temple Hill to the gazebo. I balled my eyes out for nearly an hour and a half, the whole time crying out "WHY?!?! WHY LIKE THIS?!", after calming down a bit, I called my sister-in-law Vanessa, and then went inside th

e temple and sat in the chapel. I tried to read, but it's very difficult to read with tears streaming down my face. I don't think I've ever cried that hard. I felt so bad for the temple workers, they must of thought someone died.

Anyway, my dance teacher told our class something really cool. She said if you ever need guidance or answers, read 2nd Nephi 32:5-6, pray out loud telling God what you need- just lay it out on the table- read it one more time, then close your Book of Mormon. Then open it to a random page, and read the whole page and you will find your answer. It's REALLY COOL. [I've done it twice and it REALLY works!] So in that moment while I was in the temple chapel I did. My tears let up enough for me to read Alma 13:27-30. It brought me a lot of comf

ort. And it told me what I needed to do.

I calmed down and went and ate breakfast and went on with my day. Cami Nuffer, Vanessa Moore, Anthea Kwan, Jennifer Ruggles, Meg Lasater, and Devin and Karina Moore were all there for me that day. It's so nice being able to cry on someone's shoulder/or lap. Or just able to cry to them. It really showed me who is there for me in times of need.

I don't know what is going to happen between me and David. All I know is that I need to put my faith in my Heavenly Father, and He'll get me through all things.

So I am grateful for my friends.

I know this picture was NOT taken this day, but I didn't take one. And it has what I need.

And I miss my long hair :(